I have been having the weirdest dreams.
I will laying in bed with Boyfriend, look down for a sec then look up and he is replaced by Hot Guy.
I will be walking around with Boyfriend and turn away for a sec and he is replaced by Hot Guy.
I know of hot guy but we have not spoken to each other. Never had a chance. We have seen each other and no each other by sight sort of, but have never spoken.
Maybe that will change soon.
Actually, I am sure it will change soon.
I don't know how I know though.
Does that make sense?
Haven't spoken to the Boyfriend in awhile. I forget the last time. I just know my last email to him was about a week ago.
The other day I was making me a smoothie with my new blender and as I was doing it this thought came to my head:
"I am going to break it off with Boyfriend <--- I thought his name here."
And then I felt so happy.
Then I wondered if that was wrong to feel that way and I ignored it for a bit.
Last night as I was struggling to finish the last two assignments for my last week of my current class, I thought it again that I would break up with him and made my my final decision to do it.
After that I felt the feeling again and busted out the 3 page paper and my final in about an hour and a half. That is with writing it out on paper, typing it up on my computer, converting the final to a pdf and submitting my assignments. ( I had 6 weeks of homework to finish in 2 weeks because my book came in the 5th week. <-- couldn't order because the move drained all my funds and shipping here so quickly is expensive.)
I sent him an email saying that we have too much to wok on to be together and we should be friends.
I know that is not a good way to do it, but in this circumstance it is the only way. I have not seen him in 2 months.
He hasn't emailed me in a couple of weeks. That maybe because of training...maybe. I don't know anything about his new job.
He is now a former boyfriend.
Is it wrong that I felt so happy about it?
Another thing that cinched it was that my best friend asked me in a simple sentence:
"Does he fulfill everything you need?"
"No" I answered that immediately.
Yeah, he is a nice guy but Ineed a Man who is not so flighty.
We wil have to be friends. That and I know he knows where all the good clubs are located.
Btw, yes I will tell you guys when i get to speak to Hot Guy.